sâmbătă, 10 februarie 2018

Vânt de-adânc de vis

Strigându-mi propria realitate,
Caut o culoare să-mi desenez respirația.
Stau pe o margine de gând și aștept o eternitate
Ca să mă amintesc zâmbind.

Legănând un cuib de veșnică tristețe
Deasupra unui alt abis de vise
Spulberate, aruncate într-un alt etern de întuneric.
Și totuși, sunt doar simple vise.

Fără cuvinte, dar vorbesc, mă tângui,
Și-ncet-încet mă pierd tot mai adânc în marea de nesomn.
Cu pași mărunți încerc să mă opun
Destinului de om.

Epitaf

Sculptez întunericul și-i dau o formă.
O sferă de tăcere, o sferă enormă.

Cuprind lumina și-o-nchid în ochii mei,
Ascunzându-mi sufletul în norii cei grei.

Aprinde tăcerea, coloreaz-o-n amurg,
Pictează-mă-n verdele vânturilor ce curg.

Aruncă marea până la cer,
Privind printre valuri stele ce pier.

Rupe negrul argintului-n lacrimi
In timp ce timpul, în timp, prinde aripi.

Ambiguitate

Și tac.
Și umbrele șoaptelor mele
Se desprind și cad.
O umbră de tăcere
Și-o mare de somn
Intră în mine și desfac
Nod de nemurire.

Și tac. Și plec.
În urma mea las
Praf de tăcere așternut
Peste fraged cristal
De eternă minciună.

Și tac. Și plec. Și las
În urma mea, un albastru închis -
Negrul latent al sufletului meu.
Înaintea mea,
Lumina de întuneric
A unui vechi început.

Și plouă.
Și număr stropii de apă
Ce se desprind de cer
Și cad într-un infinit
De multe posibilități.

vineri, 9 februarie 2018

The World, the Light, the Arms

Because  nothing in me
Was ever stronger than you.
And nothing before has ever felt
So restful yet so burdensome, so full
Of life, of spirit, full of soul.

And every day, where once was coal -
The sheerest lay one could befoul -
You poured your light; we melt
Together in this loveliest hue.
Our hands - enchained; together - free.




luni, 15 iunie 2015

An Ode to Woe

Long ivory fingers you leaned upon me, You, mother of the wailing waves.
You kissed the Universe; You turned the stars into Your slaves.
You sang a symphony of ravaged souls; Your whisper, their eternal graves.
The midnight sun has kneeled in front of You, as your immortal beauty
Within a glimpse has darkened the entire Skye.

vineri, 3 aprilie 2015

Would you min(e)d

Would you mind if I suddenly snatch
all the memories I've grown
in your heart?

Would you mind
if I set free all the feelings
that you encaged throughout these years
without having a clue how much they missed me?

Because, eventually...
I dind't mind at all
As long as
I didn't
even
know
.

vineri, 19 decembrie 2014

Cheers

How can you ever know if something is good enough for you? How are you supposed to make decisions when you barely know who you are?
I'm drunk again. Not surprising at all. I've been through almost anything you can imagine, I guess. But this time, I must face the situation I've always feared the most: making decisions. I'm tired of not knowing what should I do. I'm tired of taking risks. I'm tired of not taking risks... I'm tired of being tired. I can't stop thinking 'What if?'
What if all my choices were wrong?
What if all my wrong choices were supposed to teach me something?
What if I never learn?
I'm tired of unanswered questions. I just need someone beside me. I need someone who can understand me. But how can be possible when even  I don't understand myself?  I need someone who can see into my soul. I need someone to put my needs over theirs. As I did. No... I guess I need the right person. Wrong time...Wrong love... Right person.
I fucking gave it a try. I believed in you. I thought you might have been the one. You were just like me. Until I grew up. I gave you everything. I might have given you my only chance to be happy. What if...? What if I gave this second chance to the wrong person? What if you were just a lesson? Were you just another lesson until I was ready for the one I was made for? What if we weren't even supposed to be characters in the same story? What if we were just pages and we were supposed to be read by each other? But instead, we kept the whole book...
 What the hell am I supposed to learn from this? And when will I?
Have another glass! Cheers!